2/27/12

What's Really True

     I woke up in a panic at dark-thirty this morning.  My heart was racing and I was a bit disoriented.  It just took me a few seconds for my wits to come back to me and realize that all was okay.  I could hear the steady rhythm of my love breathing next to me and this helped my own heart to slow down and relax.  It was then that I sensed the Beloved's whisper and scripture come to my mind.  "The Lord is my shepherd.  I shall not want."  Yes, Lord ~ everything that I need comes from Your hand.   "He makes me lie down in green pastures.  He leads me beside still waters.  He restores my soul." Again I respond with a "yes".  You are the One who calms the panic of my heart gone wild.  I felt like responding in praise as I started to recount the many blessings from the Lord.  Family, friends, provisions.  A myriad  of pictures going through my mind of memories stored and loved.  As I laid in bed recounting, a song came to mind.  My son had just led worship at our church that day with this song (as with others).  I was and am impacted by the truths of these words:
 
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
Your perfect love is casting out fear.
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life,
I won't turn back, I know You are near.
And I will fear no evil,
For my God is with me.
And if my God is with me,
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?
Oh no, You never let go, through the calm and through the storm.
Oh no, You never let go, in every high and every low.
Oh no, You never let go, Lord, you never let go of me.

What is true?  God is near and will not let go.  I can say, "Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life".  I know this to be true as I know that I will take a next breath.  Therefore, (don't you just love that word) each day is an opportunity to trust in the One who is near.  We can boldly move forward, in His grace, knowing that this too is a gift from a kind and loving hand.

So, still no news from the imaging department for when I can get a CT scan.  Hopefully, we will hear today.  As news comes in I will let you know.  Thank you so much, everyone, who is praying on our behalf.  This is tremendous kindness to us.
 

5 comments:

  1. JUDY, DON'T MISTAKE LOVE FOR KINDNESS. LOVE TRUMPS KINDNESS EVERY TIME! I THINK I CAN SAFELY SAY AT LEAST ON MY PART AND I THINK MOST OTHERS, THE HOPES AND PRAYERS FOR YOUR WELL BIENG ARE NOT SIMPLY KINDNESS BUT DEEP CONCERN AND LOVE. BLESSINGS ON YOU AND YOUR FAMILY......ED

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  2. Judy,
    Thank you for being so transparent, it makes it so much easier for us to know how to pray. I have always loved that song - it's a good one.
    I'm always struck by the knowledge that great hardships in our lives create great opportunities for us to know the depth, & width, & height of God's love for us, and oftentimes to experience so deeply a facet of His character; such as His faithfulness. Something to cherish in the midst of grief.
    It reminds me of child birth. Child birth is literally unbelievable pain, but we remember the moment of discovery, joy and all we've gain through that pain so much more than the pain. What we've gained through our hardships overrides the pain, making it something we would never wish for but associate so much joy because we did go through it and gained SO MUCH.
    Big hug, Sista! <3
    Carolyn

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  3. Judy,
    Thank you for being so transparent, it makes it so much easier for us to know how to pray. I have always loved that song - it's a good one.
    I'm always struck by the knowledge that great hardships in our lives create great opportunities for us to know the depth, & width, & height of God's love for us, and oftentimes to experience so deeply a facet of His character; such as His faithfulness. Something to cherish in the midst of grief.
    It reminds me of child birth. Child birth is literally unbelievable pain, but we remember the moment of discovery, joy and all we've gain through that pain so much more than the pain. What we've gained through our hardships overrides the pain, making it something we would never wish for but associate so much joy because we did go through it and gained SO MUCH.
    Big hug, Sista! <3
    Carolyn

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  4. I've always said the devil works best in the dark. And I find the more I listen (to myself) the more fear is present, BUT when I speak of the things that are truth and light my fear starts breaking away, and the morning comes. And what was panic, fear and anxiety become thanksgiving and gladness. It is not easy, but it will be okay. You are one of the many things I name aloud in thanksgiving, Es

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